| (no subject) |
[Feb. 8th, 2007|01:22 am] |
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life. chaos. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 16th, 2006|01:19 pm] |
my life is changing so fast.
i wish you were up for the ride...
i wish you knew me. |
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| hmmph |
[Sep. 15th, 2006|12:01 pm] |
most people dont know where i am..
i apologize for being away.
but i need this.
i'll burst from my shell-a new person.
wait.. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 25th, 2006|11:08 am] |
stop the lies
stop the lies
stop the lies
stop the lies
stop the lies
stop the lies
[slaps tape to lips]
it wasnt fair
its not fair.
you will Not forget
i promise |
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| yeah.. same old shit |
[Jul. 21st, 2006|10:18 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
moved back to baton rouge
i wake up to my queen every sunrise
still drive that beat ass car
it still goes boom
got rap music blare'n when i go to my ghetto home
little black girls think i'm yucky.
i'm gay. so sorry that offended some color of skin.
still dont give a shit.
still smoke the greenest herb.
i get a bittersweet taste in the afternoon.
i need some money.
and my hustle is over.
thats right. no more hustle.
fuck off phone calls.
fuck off fake ass [gansters]
a job.
sounds good.
whos gonna hire this lipring
who the fuck cares
whos gonna read this
hello stalker.
i'm full
so fucking full
[of shit]
i have a mind.. but i forgot how to use it.
my paint is starting to age
i'm afraid if i use it.. i'll waste it.
such a waste.
i'll get a job.
i'll pay bills.
i love it.
life.
sometimes i wish i was still in highschool. in mrs. bowes class.
wandering
wishing
and hoping.
and still being a waste.
responsibility.
give me a fucking break.
push me off this cliff.
i want to feel alive.
i'll take my queen with me.
we'll fly
lets fly baby.
lets fly. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 22nd, 2006|01:00 am] |
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| |  mellow | ] |
[i can't breathe. i can't breathe. i can't breathe.]
smoke fills lungs.
cough
cough
cough
mind at ease
thoughts fight like demons
shelter
shelter
tunes at the ear
i am sound.
LET ME INSIDE!
i was once a princess..
now demons corupt my mind.
i'm shallow.
i'm sound.
i'm inside you.
[i'm your drug.]
don't run away. i'll fallow you... like demons. |
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| : ) |
[Apr. 19th, 2006|03:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
i love you.
i love my job.
i love my new place.
i love this book.
i'm worn out in a beautiful way. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|05:16 pm] |
i've dreamt a dream i could not win
i thought id give you the best of me..
and i did.
was it worth it?
yes it was.
you make me whole.
i never thought id feel the ground as id walk away every time.
but i did.
i did feel you.
i did see you.
and forever my dreams will remain dreams.
and i'll do nothing about it.
why am i so naive?
i'll never know.. but i'm still breathing.
i guess the reason i gave up...
is because long before you gave up on me.
was it worth it?
yes it was.
and it always will be.
i'll never be able to eat at i-hop without the walls screaming your name.
i'll never be able to drive all night and let it be worth the times i did back and forth...
just to see your face.
i'll never tell another mother that the person i am is beautiful.. all because of you.
you were rare.. a disease.
i'd spend the rest of my life hospitalized just to feel the pain.
i hurt to cause some sense in my life.
i'll never let myself feel the hurt again.. if it wasnt caused by you.
you were my angel.
my cure.
all the times i thought i was someone.. was only in your arms.
and this picture in my head must remain..
because my world will last forever if i know my memories remain in you.
they will remain.. forever.
and they will die away when you die away.
but you'll never die away.. because your existence.. will forever drive people to insanity.
you are beautiful.
you will make someone else beautiful.
you will make smiles remain on faces.
you will make hearts drop hard enough that they'll want to meet your mothers eyes.
will people feel the nervousness that i felt the first time you touched my face?
i have no idea.
i have let it go.
the most beautiful moments of my life.
i will live to find the one who can make them as great..
but forever is a word.
a promise.
that i'll never break away from.
it wasnt healthy to keep you waiting for me to straighten my act.
i love you.
thats why i cant let you remember my face.
it will continue to hurt until i get over myself.
it was true.. everything that everyone put in your head.
i'm not worth your time.
because i'm a mistake.
i just want you to know that you're beautiful.
and i cant put you through it anymore.
because.
you are worth it |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|03:43 am] |
all those people were right.
so can you finally get off my ass?
thank you. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 4th, 2006|03:00 am] |
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WEAR YOUR FUCKING SEATBELTS
ok.
there's my car.
long.story.short.
driving on martin luther
guy pulls out of parking lot
"doesnt see me"
i hit him head on.
car=total'ed
yeah.... it sucks.
big time. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 24th, 2006|10:53 am] |
this weekend is going to be awesome!!!
: )
<333 |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 22nd, 2006|01:14 am] |
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our.love.is.like.WOAH.
♥ |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 20th, 2006|01:10 am] |
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this is my puppy
his name is Charlie.
♥
.love. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 16th, 2006|04:38 am] |
I know you are the only one who probably reads this.
lol.
i love you!!!
: ) |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 6th, 2006|10:33 pm] |
i hate that i'd make the same mistakes
i hate that you'd allow me to push you away
i guess you knew better
its like my hands were cut off
my arms grew a numbness
what did you do to me
was it the force of your eyes
did you find your gem
was it me?
did i have to walk through 50mph winds?
the wind was still
as your heart
my knowledge was still
as my heart
you've caught me now
i'm naked.
you're allowed to rape me..
you've already raped me.
was i willing..
to let you have your way with me?
or was it beyond control?
i'm happy.
does everything happen for a reason?
do mistakes teach lessons?
my mind is rushed.
but i've been paying attention.
i feel beautiful.
i'm sober.
content.
is that possible?
i've been so naive.
i've been so unattentive.
does it matter now?
just kiss me.
won't you?
"on that midnight street..
sweep me off my feet."
thats all i'll ever need.
i am me.
and you know me.
and thats really scary.
you. know. me.
i'm just as shocked as you.
i never gave anyone that air to breathe.. and now you consume it.
lets dance.
i love you. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 4th, 2006|02:58 pm] |
i love my baby.
yes i do!
we are forever.
who ever gets between that.. dey gonna get kilt.
♥ |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 27th, 2006|12:42 am] |
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i can't wait to leave this place |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 18th, 2006|12:25 am] |
i miss you
rip-joshua paul bunn
01-19-04 |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 15th, 2006|08:38 am] |
trif'lyn ass hoes.
they gonna get popped. |
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